A Short Back Story
There is this saying that I always believed in and that is :
“The only person you should try to be better than, is the person you were yesterday”.
I completely agree with this statement. I think we can all agree when we say we all are human. We all make mistakes, we try our best to correct those mistakes and to be a better person every day. Whether it’s in relationships, jobs, business, or family, we all try be a better version of ourselves.
Many of you know me as Xavior Spade, owner of this website The Daily Deception. Some of you are dear friends of mine and others know me from my articles my short stent with a magic company or through hear say. Some of you know me as Raul Thomas
I am here writing this piece for everyone as proof that I am not perfect and I believe the TRUTH will set you free. I to dispel any rumors you may have heard. I have had MANY bumps in my life and one continues to follow me to this very day.
Shortly after 9/11 I stopped doing magic to take up something that I thought would help people, I was at the 9/11 site for weeks volunteering my time. I became an EMT in hopes of hopefully saving lives. Shortly afterward I became a paramedic for NYC. I enjoyed my job and more importantly I loved helping people in their time of need. I also began teaching life saving techniques feeling that I could help more people if I taught people how to save lives like I knew how to.
Just before my 25 birthday about 6 years ago I met a woman who worked for another ambulance company. We dated for 3 months and as most things in life the relationship came to an end. It ended because I found out she was cheating on me with my partner who I worked in the ambulance with for 16 hours a day.
This is where the story and my life take a different direction.
Five months after I stopped communicating with the woman I received a knock at the door of my house. I was very surprised when i was arrested and the reason why was never told to me. I spent three days in jail before I heard why I was arrested. I was brought into the court room and the judge began reading a list of charges that was almost a page long. I’m going to put of the article that was in the News Paper showing the charges. I post this in hopes you will continue reading
I WAS NOT CONVICTED OF ANY OF THIS. NONE OF THE TRUMPED UP CHARGES WERE PROVEN.
Why was I arrested? Well that’s another interesting part of the story. It turns out the “woman” I was dating was underage. As it turned out the woman, who I thought was a woman who I would go to bars with after work and haver her ID checked by bar doormen was 16. To make matters worse the reason the police showed up at my door is that my ex-partner who not only cheated with my then girlfriend went to the police because he knew her true age and then decided to take it upon himself to turn me in. This subsequently boosted his career in becoming a police officer.
Now, I’m sure many of you are wondering “how did you not know this girl was underage??” …. “Didn’t she look younger?”….
Listen. In my days, I didn’t feel it necessary to ask people for ID every time I meet them. If you tell me your 21 then your 21. Especially if you are getting served in bars. Maybe , thinking about it now, I wish I was more careful and could go back to my old self and tell myself to be more careful and wished I would have questioned it more. But that is the past and life goes on.
I was arrested, charged and I was put on the Registered Sex Offenders list. Because I was a volunteer firefighter and a paramedic , it made the papers. All because of a woman that lied to me about her age and lied about what she was doing.
At that very moment, I already considered my life over.
Once my name was on the damn list, everything was over. I lost my job, practically everything I worked so hard for. I couldn’t even get a job at McDonalds. I went into a very deep depression and actually considered taking my life.
Why Am I not Still in Jail?
The ambulance company that she worked for, of course to cover their tracks and not make them look bad, denied that a 16 year old worked for their company. Shortly before my case ended I found something that saved my life and my credibility to the courts. I found her fake ID in my car. I presented it to my lawyer and it made it to the court. So this was my only saving grace.
However wrong, I did have a relationship with this girl and because of the laws in NY being a “no ignorance” state, the court had to charge me with something. All the charges were dropped except one. So to make things clear I’m posting my final conviction from the New York State Division of Criminal Justice Services website.
At the end of everything, I was charged with ATTEMPTED Use of a minor under 17.
NONE OF THE OTHER 97 CHARGES!!!
So what does this mean? It means that I have a stigma that few people understand because for most people sex offender means “Pedophile”,or sex offender means “Kid Toucher”. And I am far from either of these. I was is someone who was young man who met a woman after work in a bar and it turned out to be a complete lie. I’ve paid my dues to society under direction of the law. I realize and accept that I will have to live with this stigma forever.
A few further things to understand. First and foremost I DO NOT PERFORM MAGIC FOR CHILDREN nor have I for the last 10 years of my magic career. This case had absolutely nothing to do with my magic.
Second I’ve made it my mission to help others and promote magic in a positive light. I spend what little money I make to run this website and there are other projects I hope to launch in hopes of bringing magicians together.
I am not a monster or a predator. I have a wonderful fiancé (age 24
) and her and her family know me and my character and accept me
and I hope you will as well as I still continue to strive for better and work to make the magic community better with honest knowledge and support.
When I was at an all time low magic gave that to me. So I’m paying it forward to all of you.
I don’t know what is happening in your head as your reading this. I don’t know if you’re judging me because of my mistake or if you’re applauding me because I was able to move forward after a nightmare. But what I know is this:
I am Xavior Spade, founder of The Daily Deception. Over the past 6 years I have focused in getting myself out there again with my site and with my magic. I am working HARD everyday to do what I need to do to make my goal. I work hard for you, the readers, my friends, and the community, by creating content and projects for you to enjoy and learn from, rand to give everyone opportunities to be a better magician.
I am writing this because I want everyone who is stuck or who is struggling to NEVER GIVE UP and “Try to be better than the person you were yesterday“
I didn’t. I am sure as hell not giving up now. I will always keep moving forward and I will always keep working hard and not let my mistakes get the best of me. Although at times it has been very hard not to give up. Decide how ever you like about me. But if you decide not to support me in my endeavors please do not try to hinder me from them as well. They will not affect you or what you do nor anyone else if you let them be.
A group of bullies who pose as truth seekers
Why am I posting this about my life?
Recently I was contacted by the owner of a website called Magic Leaks, and a person named Mr. E. He extorts people and bullies people into doing what he wants with subtle threats. He can’t be a good person.
Mr. E told me that someone had sent my arrest information to him and he was going to post it. I truthfully told him my story and asked that since this had nothing to do with magic to please leave me and my work be. It affected nothing and other than a scandal this would do nothing but hurt me and what I’ve worked so hard to create. This is his response to me.
Sadly after a few attempts to do “damage Control” because let’s face it, I’m pretty sure most of you have made your decision already and aren’t even looking at this, I again asked to have it be left alone and shortly after that I received this email.
It was at this point that I began to feel what little career I had left beginning to slip away as I know how people react to such things. I began to talk about how we all make mistakes and how I’m sure that he himself had made his own mistakes but wished that he would never have to go through what I went through in my life. Here’s one of the emails I sent to him.
Strangely this was his response to me……
So here’s the situation that’s starting to unfold. I have secrets from my past which after this post goes live I will not have. Yet Mr.E admits to me he has his own secrets but refuses (and works very hard) to let his secrets out. To expose himself as he wants others to expose them selves… Here’s a quote from their website.
MagicLeaks is dedicated to being a living source of information. We have operatives all over the world, and everyone is invited to participate. We bring you the truth in whatever form it comes to us. Just honesty. YOU are an operative. You have only to speak to us. All is anonymous. All is protected. (Where in history have we heard something like this before?? Cold War?? Russia???)
Basically what they’re saying is that it’s ok for us to do what we want to you but rest assured you can’t do it to us…. Doesn’t seem very honest… If your personal life doesn’t have anything to do with what you do why do we need to divulge our lives to everyone else? Are we running for president? Or Dali Llama?
To be honest while this was going on and I realized that they would not stop until what I wrote above was let out I broke down.. I cried because I knew this will probably end, or make extremely hard, everything I’ve been working towards. It would end friendships and relationships with people I care about. And these people didn’t care. They began to ask about my website and how I make money as if they were the police. Asking about traffic statistics on my website as you can see in the picture above.. This was one of my next emails from them….
Again another discussion took place where I briefly told them of some of my projects. And this is where it starts to get twisted
Coming from a group that seeks honestly they sure don’t seem to have integrity. They seem to be in the “Slander Business”
The Truth Will Set You Free
And I’ve given you the truth about myself. It’s now up to you to decide if you will even bother with me anymore or what you will say about me, or if you see me what you will say behind my back. I’ve accepted that this will make things hard, harder than I ever wished for. However that’s the way the world works and I’m ready to face that. That doesn’t give people the right to extort those because they want traffic to their site. Nor does it give people the right to claim power and use whatever means they can to get you to do what they want. I’m sure Magic Leaks will post a nice rude damaging post for me but don’t be fooled when I say that I didn’t feel threatened by their actions towards me.
I now end this article and possibly magic knowing that many will not accept me for who I am in instead only look at my label. I’m sad knowing I will never get to meet some people because of this stigma on my life. I go knowing that very very hard times are ahead because of what this will cause. But please understand I mean no one any harm nor do I diminish the harm people have caused me. Everyday is a new struggle but I put this forward.
Who among you who is without sin may cast the first stone….
We all have skeletons in our closets and we all have our secrets and things we regret. Hell some of you may have worse convictions that you have told no one about. That doesn’t change who you are and your intention. And I’m a firm believer that if your intentions are good and you do no harm to people then there should be no persecution. If you have done things you’re not proud of then suck it up own up to it and use everyday to be a better person. I will still strive to do great magic and to help others do great magic and to allow people access to great magic because magic is so much more than a hobby to me. Magic is who I am. It’s one of the reasons I’m still alive why I didn’t take my own life and why I work so hard to make it better. Magic is real and deeper then some can understand. Magic is the relationships and friendships I’ve made because of it. Magic is how I can make people problems melt away with a few cards or coins. It’s how we bond in our small community. And I can never let that go.
Farewell for now….